I will think I will label 2010 as “The year of uncertainty”
There are only about 3 hours left of this year. This crazy crazy year. So many ups and downs and ins and outs for me. I think my new years resolution this time last year was simply to make it, to survive another year and I am proud to say for probably the first time in my life that as I look back on 2010 I see that I exceeded my resolution. This year was definitely one of growth and change, nothing was certain for the whole year but somehow I made it out on the other side in one piece.
When I look at the person I am right now compared to who I was at at the beginning of this year I am I see someone is who is finally starting to find her way. Sure I laugh a little less then I used to, I am more careful to trust but I sure know how to feel, I know how to love, and I have faith that things are as they should be. I was so challenged this year in so many ways but I surprised even myself over and over with the things I did. I jumped in with both feet to everything I was doing and I love the adventure my life has become.
I learned to stop waiting for something to happen or someone to come along and make my life complete and I realized that my life and the people in it at this moment is complete. I learned to enjoy and nurture the relationships I have. I let go of relationships that didn’t need to be there and I think I finally (maybe) learned that I don’t need to make everyone happy and (surprise!) not everyone has to like me or be my friend. O, but the people who are in my life that I just love so much, I am so humbled that God would give them to me. My mom, my dad, my brother bear and his wonderful wifey, and all my fantastic friends, gosh I love em so much it hurts.
So with all that being said, I have just a few goals for this coming year. I have the whole working out thing down, I don’t really care enough to eat healthier, and I have never been much of a saver so I will stay away from those sorts of goals. This year I will:
- RUN: outside. I will enjoy the beauty around me and I will run hard and push myself.
- LAUGH: like I did before. Because I think laughing is better than not laughing. It does something to the heart.
- LOVE: because I also think loving is better than not loving.
- READ: more books and less useless information from the worldwide web
- WRITE: in a journal or on here, documenting my life…my adventure
And one more “goal,” or I think I will call just call it a maybe…
MAYBE…this year its my time to fall in love. Every year I think maybe its time but this year has really taught me that all things happen perfectly in God’s timing. When my heart is ready it will happen and it will be lovely.
2011 will be the year I run, I laugh, I love , I read, I write, and maybe, just maybe I will fall.